We have a dog in our house

Um, as most things I get super excited to start and then it FADES! Hey, I should give myself credit, I am at least writing again...right??...
Um, I WAS doing better. My pains are still sticking around. I kept running thinking it would help, but they arent' going away. I even did an exercise video today and thought they would magically be gone, but they are just the same. My back hurts as I am writing, and my wrist is flaring up really bad. I have to lay off of the push ups, which Jillian videos do a lot on your hands to build your core and arms. It's good stuff and I need my wrists. Challening time for me right now. I am struggling still with the eating. Just back to my habitual ways I guess. It's not a good excuse, but I have to get with it soon, because I dont' want to throw away my weight loss and I want to feel COMFORTABLE in swimsuit for the FIRST time in my life. We actually went swimming with some friends today at the raquet ball club. I felt ok in the suit. That Owen he was a stud muffin in his swim trunks. We all had a great time. It was a great feeling to swim with my children and friends and I wasnt' stressed. The girls and Owen were super great.
I better finish later and brush my teeth and go to bed. Owen is up at 5:30 and it's hurtin me.
Right now, it's the next day. I think I have a crush on a dog. I beautiful chocolate lab that isn't mine, but is in my house and I guess we are babysitting it. I have tears in my eyes right now, not for the dog, but for me. I have taken hold of my old habits and am eating to just eat. Not sure why. I have to figure it out. I am sad, not me and I want to be in control again. Tomorrow will tell. I will pray for strenght and support from Heavenly Father tonight. I know I am capable of doing it. I know I can, I just have to try harder. Ry and I watched BL (biggest loser) tonight. I am looking at so many cute crafts on peoples blogs and I just want to make, make, make STUFF. I love crafts, I love being creative. Now I just need to do and not DREAM! When my friend teaches me how to put my name on my pictures, i am going to start stickin up pictures. Lots of to do's. TOday I LOVED my children. I do everyday, but it's one thing I feel like I did good today. The sun was out and we went for a walk with Hershe. Em and Ash rode their scooters and I pushed Owen in the stroller. I love my babies!