still can't sleep

Look what happens when you say never. I have hopefully never said that I wouldn't have a dog, but I have said that I would NEVER have an indoor dog. About 4 weeks ago Ryan begged me for dog. I said I wasn't ready. Long story short. We are taking care of a guys dog for him until he finds a place to rent where he can let the dog stay with him. He is paying us. I feel like it's a job, but it's been less than 48 hours since we got her (Hershe) and I am falling............in Love, I guess it's what you call it. I don't know, but she is sweet. She does what you say, she is potty trained, she is mellow, she is nice, she is pretty, and she doesn't stink. She DOES shed, but it's ok, because she can't be perfect. SHe is a purebred chocolate lab. The situation is new, I have accepted her as part of our family. The girls love her. She likes them and us and loves to just be loved. She is still getting used to Owen. Not sure about him yet. This was part of the reason I wasn't ready to have a dog (ther others were...too much money, to sad to make them sleep outside, and didn't want to get attached) WOOPS........ I am attached. Of course if she left tomorrow I wouldn't cry but I like her. I was telling Ryan the feelings I had last night were so strong. I was just so happy that this guy we hardly know wanted a place for his dog to stay and he just trusting us. I know we are good people, clean and will love the dog. I just makes me feel good. I made BLT's for dinner in honor of Hershe. Her owner told us maybe everyonce in a while she could have a piece of bacon. So tonight I made 9 pieces of bacon. Everyone (except Owen) got 2 and Hershe got one. It's LOVE I am telling you, pure love. Speaking of love. I asked Ryan tonight if he remembers the reason he feel in love with me and he said yes, and began to tell me why. It was something along the lines of that I was just natural and I was me and I was cool. Of course he said it much more amazing than that. I was lifted and flatered. I get down sometimes because I focus on the part of our marriage that has faded and how we aren't like we used to be in the begining. It's a thing I should work on. I lOVE rYAn.Sure we don't sit ontop of each other and smother each other 24 hours a day like we used to, but we are still happy. We have grown, we love, we are still intimate. I kissed him tonight, and it was because I love him and it was special and I wanted to keep kissing him. I love that feeling. Valentines day is this week. We are going on a date tomorrow. My goal is to just lose myself in him and not worry about kids. I want to think JUST RYan. I have been trying super hard lately to strengthen the family and it's been such a blessing, but I realize we have to work on marriage and it's ALL about balance.
MORE DATE NIGHTS TO COME..............
MONEY DOESN'T MATTER...................(gotta say that one over and over to myself)
MARRIAGE WILL STRENGTHEN OUR FAMILY..................